What goes around, comes around??

There has been a lot in the last one week that .a book would not be suffice to fill in all my feelings...nevertheless I'll try to confide a few...

I've been an independent woman for at least sometime, and I happened to be with someone who does it all for me that I'm more or less dependent these days. Well I've no complaints...

Since moving to this new city, I hardly went around ....well not even with company. I hardly went out of my home besides grocery shopping that I feel like I don’t belong here...

All of a sudden the responsibility fell on me that too with a heavy kick that it feels like....throwing tantrums, I’m like a baby still learning to take the first step. Imagine being asked to run that to with a heavy big book!!!

It seems to be a holiday....well the definition of holiday would truly mean some time alone to recuperate...or relieve ur stress....it serves one good to take a holiday....but wonder if people have thought of it this way, Whom do u want to be with on ur holiday?? Who deserves ur time?? Well ur parents do deserve some of ur time esp as they grow older in age they do need ur time, attention n love, of course if the person is married or in a relationship...one would think that some of the time be spent with that person n ...if u do have kids,. they too deserve ur time .....

I'm in that case on a holiday now...long long holiday till my maker decides or tells me its enuf n till he asks me to get back..the only down side is...u don’t get the same pay cheque each month.....no laurels or applause ...hence wonder if it is of

Been married for like nearly 6 years...n I seriously can't think of holidays that I got some time alone :) not even a single business trip that was about family.....hmm wonder if a full time job was the culprit haha.......

Its been a week since B's away..I do miss him, it has kinda made me realize how little time we've spent together. I wish at some point we would benefit from such ...holidays hahha ...in the last 6 years. we’ve never been on our own except for the 7 days in march 2008…the only holiday that seemed like holiday to me…..well we do have a lifetime together........marriage needs constant re-assurance...not only by words ...so some time together would do us a wonderful job :)

My days r the same each day....since B has left...i rise each day ....eat/sleep n then again sleep...n I don't wait for anyone to come home by 5…the same old TV n PC makes my day…n of course my baby…I get 5 or 10mins to call to find out how B’s day was......Te deal is not to complain, just coz my days r dull…I still wake up each morning n say ’thank u lord for this beautiful day’. The last 6 months has been different ....new home, new place, new kid...n no job.

Life teaches us many lessons....nothing ever reciprocates ...what goes around need not come around, always.I try to see n make sure that people are loved n care for, feels odd to me thinking of me hahha ..but I’ve decided to change, I will continue to do what I’m supposed to…every time it hurts I’m jus gonna say that ‘I refuse to be offended by this situation’

Ps 94 :19
In the multitude of my anxieties within me
ur comforts delights my soul....


yea..there were moments this week that i thought i would wanna scream n yell.....but, it was only HIS comforts that carried me through, though the watches of night. There was only one voice. One hand that kept me strong...in fact, itz given me a sense of re-assurance....no matter how many ever 'Good’ people u have they wont be half as good enough as HIM..HE is not a respecter of persons. He LOVES me just that way he does any one else..."