sillyme cryin on web ??

The night B left, I almost felt broke, not only coz I would miss him..but my few days looked like it had no beginning and end. Off late, things have crept up that we have been overlooking each other :) late nights, busy meetings :)

N this jobless female has turned more silly, should see ways to creatively make me busy :)

I'm proud of what I've done to the family, this year again I had to remind B to pick gifts for parents...when I first came to B's home there were no b’day celebrations as such.. Wonder if people would remember, its okay but at least there is a tradition now :) I remember B telling me that they don’t do all of that..but now it is common practice that u might have forgotten..I put up it on my mind abt b’days..

But in 5 years there are hardly any time when I got wished by any of them :) well, I guess they need someone to remind them a well :) n it can;t be me obviously :) hahaha..So, yea my b'day gets royally forgotten at home... well yea u can bring abt a new thing at home but u cannot impose it be done on specific people's days, they do remember all their days haha :)

Tis year B almost forgot....he was nearly forced to make a dinner arrangement. …n yea it has been a difficult year for us, so yea expected no gifts from B. Guess should consider the time as a gift..a cozy roof top restaurant sounds like "time"

2 days from my b'day B went shopping for gifts for his folks n brother..don't know why for the fist time I got a li'l green. I guess its not about gifts as such but it kinda made me feel, that I could pass without it hahaa...This break has definielt done more damage than building me up...is it the soaring expenses.??

It was dad n mom’s anniversary…n we picked for them..hahha funny enough, this inane self, for the first time in my entire life, felt envious or neglected not sure which one. N somehow I connected this all to unemployment, bills getting higher each week, every weekend with the grocery bills, we have our eyebrows lifted...and look at each other, as if to ask for an explanation. B is highly organized n can't stand the window shopping, I love to carelessly move m hands over to something

B called to find out if we needed something from India..well, I wanted was a BREAK, a time off from the uncertainties, from home, from kids...a little break.....not many days thought but I feel like I badly needed a break....it would be hard to part with 2 best kids in the whole world :)