How much do you really love God?

It's always so soothing, assuring to one self to hear and sing back the tunes that talk about the love of God. There are some songs where it says that we love god more than anything , we sing to god saying, we have given him more love than anything of this world.

It so happend that while singing such a song, well I was one among the crowd to sing it...it suddenly made me muse, it made me feel light, but then suddenly, out of nowhere I felt a burden, it was such that, do I even lie to God of my love.

It made me ask these questions to myself, why put a face, act up in front of these people, you can act, sing holy but to be holy is something else...

I apologized to my god, said I am sorry, total hypocrisy...
I surrendered all my thoughts, my anxieties, my stife, my everything..

I heard a voice saying 'while singing you say you are my everything, I love you more than Anything of this world. Then why are people so desperate for not having a job, not knowing of your future, not having a home??? why a you so concerned even about the future of your kids... Whom are u loving the uncertainties of this world or an unconditionally loving father?'

It made me think of what it says in the bible...that you do not have the love of the father in him..if u love the world.. Read 1 john 2:15  Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him 

I pondered, many times you make friends with your dreams, your prospective future, contemplating on what to do next to achieve....how much do you love god...oh haven't you read that you are an enemy of god?

Read James4:4 You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
Jesus, help me each day to surrender everything at your feet, even anxieties that are birthed due to the friendships I've had with the world...help me to set my focus on you and to truly love you.