It's always so soothing, assuring to one self to hear and sing back the tunes that talk about the love of God. There are some songs where it says that we love god more than anything , we sing to god saying, we have given him more love than anything of this world.
It so happend that while singing such a song, well I was one among the crowd to sing it...it suddenly made me muse, it made me feel light, but then suddenly, out of nowhere I felt a burden, it was such that, do I even lie to God of my love.
It made me ask these questions to myself, why put a face, act up in front of these people, you can act, sing holy but to be holy is something else...
I apologized to my god, said I am sorry, total hypocrisy...
I surrendered all my thoughts, my anxieties, my stife, my everything..
I heard a voice saying 'while singing you say you are my everything, I love you more than Anything of this world. Then why are people so desperate for not having a job, not knowing of your future, not having a home??? why a you so concerned even about the future of your kids... Whom are u loving the uncertainties of this world or an unconditionally loving father?'
It made me think of what it says in the bible...that you do not have the love of the father in him..if u love the world.. Read 1 john 2:15 Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him
I pondered, many times you make friends with your dreams, your prospective future, contemplating on what to do next to achieve....how much do you love god...oh haven't you read that you are an enemy of god?
Read James4:4
You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
Jesus, help me each day to surrender everything at your feet, even anxieties that are birthed due to the friendships I've had with the world...help me to set my focus on you and to truly love you.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Life willows..
Good day to my web confidante...Jesus Christ, is alive, still alive, very much alive...
Have not had much time to muse in the presence of God, but, I'm learning to acknowledge everything that God's working on. It's pretty much instigating to know that, once we learn to admit the way things are, we are contented not only to God but his current way in our life. I'm pretty much sure that everyone has areas to get answers for, areas that they need restoration, areas that you need guidance, but be rest assured that God is in control and behaving like he is ..in control matters
Reading thought proverbs 17:22 made me stumble on a Verse, it says, cheerful heart is good medicine but a crushed spirit dries up bones
I couldn't agree less, from my experience, you May have umpteen answered questions in life, your future may look desolate, but, you need to cheer, how? Just trust for real that God is in control, ..We chose to think futile, yes, it may weigh you down, but nevertheless it's futile, when you think of eternity.....we dwell on the very things that get us and keep us down... The pity party begins and before we know, we are in the pit and can’t find our way out
A Crushed Spirit can be caused by sorrow, grief and loss, rejection (even from conception), betrayal of trust, financial status, loss of job...all types oF traumatic experiences. Only Jesus christ, can restore such and bring wholeness of spirit again.A broken spirit also can impair or prevent the ability to receive comfort into the inner distress within the person. But for Jesus to heal one needs to acknowledge that you have a broken spirit, n te benefits of a cheerful heart..to yearn for one, Jesus loves who are thirsty for him...until you kno wer you stand why would you aski him in ?
A cheerful heart chooses God's truth as a barometer for thinking and feeling, allowing God to turn negative situations into positive, it doesn't give up,u simple trusts God and it is evidenced in the way we think, talk, act, and feel. So start with yourself, no one can do that for you, take responsible for being misery,N te way you feel only God can change us. See it says good medicine, why medicine, coz it cures, only Jesus can cure you...of ur emotional weakness
Women struggle so much with what people thought of them, but, "do you really think people have time to be thinking about you so much?" dont be foolish! Dont live in a self-centered world..The medicine doesn't taste good but it sure brings healing ...God's medicine. His love helps it go down better, let someone else think they're right and it's okay. I'd rather stay cheerful than crushed...... God knows the truth.
It has been said, that if you talk to a fig tree and tell it to die the plant will actually begin to wither and dry up ; results of a crushed spirit will do. Our spirits become more full of negatives instead of God and it comes out of our mouths and affects our health. We dry up. God is a positive God. Proverbs 10:28 says that the prospect of the righteous is joy. His prospect or plan for us includes joy and lightness of spirit.
The crushed spirit is not god sent, we kno who comes To steal ur joy! John 10:10 reads, The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
Luke 6:45
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh
The thoughts of your heart will define you and your future.
Have not had much time to muse in the presence of God, but, I'm learning to acknowledge everything that God's working on. It's pretty much instigating to know that, once we learn to admit the way things are, we are contented not only to God but his current way in our life. I'm pretty much sure that everyone has areas to get answers for, areas that they need restoration, areas that you need guidance, but be rest assured that God is in control and behaving like he is ..in control matters
Reading thought proverbs 17:22 made me stumble on a Verse, it says, cheerful heart is good medicine but a crushed spirit dries up bones
I couldn't agree less, from my experience, you May have umpteen answered questions in life, your future may look desolate, but, you need to cheer, how? Just trust for real that God is in control, ..We chose to think futile, yes, it may weigh you down, but nevertheless it's futile, when you think of eternity.....we dwell on the very things that get us and keep us down... The pity party begins and before we know, we are in the pit and can’t find our way out
A Crushed Spirit can be caused by sorrow, grief and loss, rejection (even from conception), betrayal of trust, financial status, loss of job...all types oF traumatic experiences. Only Jesus christ, can restore such and bring wholeness of spirit again.A broken spirit also can impair or prevent the ability to receive comfort into the inner distress within the person. But for Jesus to heal one needs to acknowledge that you have a broken spirit, n te benefits of a cheerful heart..to yearn for one, Jesus loves who are thirsty for him...until you kno wer you stand why would you aski him in ?
A cheerful heart chooses God's truth as a barometer for thinking and feeling, allowing God to turn negative situations into positive, it doesn't give up,u simple trusts God and it is evidenced in the way we think, talk, act, and feel. So start with yourself, no one can do that for you, take responsible for being misery,N te way you feel only God can change us. See it says good medicine, why medicine, coz it cures, only Jesus can cure you...of ur emotional weakness
Women struggle so much with what people thought of them, but, "do you really think people have time to be thinking about you so much?" dont be foolish! Dont live in a self-centered world..The medicine doesn't taste good but it sure brings healing ...God's medicine. His love helps it go down better, let someone else think they're right and it's okay. I'd rather stay cheerful than crushed...... God knows the truth.
It has been said, that if you talk to a fig tree and tell it to die the plant will actually begin to wither and dry up ; results of a crushed spirit will do. Our spirits become more full of negatives instead of God and it comes out of our mouths and affects our health. We dry up. God is a positive God. Proverbs 10:28 says that the prospect of the righteous is joy. His prospect or plan for us includes joy and lightness of spirit.
The crushed spirit is not god sent, we kno who comes To steal ur joy! John 10:10 reads, The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
Luke 6:45
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh
The thoughts of your heart will define you and your future.
Saturday, September 15, 2012
the end of a new beginning
Was it that what David Phelps'/..... song said? Liked it..!! I have come to terms with the fact that having a kid under 3 makes you one of those people in church who cannot focus on the sermon. It used to make me feel so dull and without life. But, I have learnt one thing over the course of the last 3 years (yes had 2 babies within this 3 year gap!!) Sometimes, the little you hear is enough to carry you through that week. Sometimes, thats all you need for that week to keep going. !!
I'm continuously baffled at the prospect, that
everytime, I feel discouraged
Everytimg, I'm made to feel low
Everytime, others make me feel insecure
Everytime, people pull me down..
There is always a song that comes on my lips..
it is always so assuraing to keep me going on..and I love it...
Its only been a few weeks, but I love the feel of God's presence in my life.
About 3 weeks ago while sitting in a pew, when the worship was going on, I heard a voice asking me, what do you want to do for me...I said shoulder your ministry. You know it brings me shivers to think of what reply I got. I heard someone telling me, no ...you cant shoulder you need to pillar !!!
He said, shouldering is CHRIST'S BODY(well we have many who can carry me!!) that means one can keep me at a shoulder level, carry me as a burden, he said having burden for me is good..thats a step..but after you have shouldered me, move on...my body is the church, I need people to BE PILLARS of the church WHO CAN BUILD IT, he said quit Shouldering and learn to build it....
I could not help but cry...I said, what do I have in me, to take it to build, I mumbled, it brought me goosebumps, it seemed big enough, I said, I do not even have a one on one with you as much as people in this room. I'm the least of all these people around me..and above all, most of the times, you stir me but I can never keep moving on with the same consistency, but God said...'Let's take a walk together!' It was clear to me that all what i had to go through was to make myself humbled, before god n man, he cannot use self boasting, prideful horses...he needs broken necked donkeys...(oh when i read about the redemption of donkeys in the bible, with a broken neck, it did stir me again...oh father.!!)HE has loved me unconditionallly I agree, but PRESERVED me to PILLAR? He said...it takes long to be pillar, and it takes a lot of pain, a lot of presssure, dont get yourself weary when people say you cant take pressure....god said..'those words are hurting but thats what it feels to be pressureised !!! " God told me ...you will have to be dug out, all thats you need to go, the new foundation have come it and it takes time to make it strong inside, coz you need to hold the CORNERSTONE, none other than me... and its not an easy ride, people push you, rush you, but in the end you will have a deep assurance of your call..BE BLESSED!!
I wish I could get similar encounters, but that day I'm sure I did not get distracted with kids...we did not take them...
Now I understand what the Psalmist says 'oh how I long to be in your presence.'
I'm continuously baffled at the prospect, that
everytime, I feel discouraged
Everytimg, I'm made to feel low
Everytime, others make me feel insecure
Everytime, people pull me down..
There is always a song that comes on my lips..
it is always so assuraing to keep me going on..and I love it...
Its only been a few weeks, but I love the feel of God's presence in my life.
About 3 weeks ago while sitting in a pew, when the worship was going on, I heard a voice asking me, what do you want to do for me...I said shoulder your ministry. You know it brings me shivers to think of what reply I got. I heard someone telling me, no ...you cant shoulder you need to pillar !!!
He said, shouldering is CHRIST'S BODY(well we have many who can carry me!!) that means one can keep me at a shoulder level, carry me as a burden, he said having burden for me is good..thats a step..but after you have shouldered me, move on...my body is the church, I need people to BE PILLARS of the church WHO CAN BUILD IT, he said quit Shouldering and learn to build it....
I could not help but cry...I said, what do I have in me, to take it to build, I mumbled, it brought me goosebumps, it seemed big enough, I said, I do not even have a one on one with you as much as people in this room. I'm the least of all these people around me..and above all, most of the times, you stir me but I can never keep moving on with the same consistency, but God said...'Let's take a walk together!' It was clear to me that all what i had to go through was to make myself humbled, before god n man, he cannot use self boasting, prideful horses...he needs broken necked donkeys...(oh when i read about the redemption of donkeys in the bible, with a broken neck, it did stir me again...oh father.!!)HE has loved me unconditionallly I agree, but PRESERVED me to PILLAR? He said...it takes long to be pillar, and it takes a lot of pain, a lot of presssure, dont get yourself weary when people say you cant take pressure....god said..'those words are hurting but thats what it feels to be pressureised !!! " God told me ...you will have to be dug out, all thats you need to go, the new foundation have come it and it takes time to make it strong inside, coz you need to hold the CORNERSTONE, none other than me... and its not an easy ride, people push you, rush you, but in the end you will have a deep assurance of your call..BE BLESSED!!
I wish I could get similar encounters, but that day I'm sure I did not get distracted with kids...we did not take them...
Now I understand what the Psalmist says 'oh how I long to be in your presence.'
Touched by the presence
If only thoughts could write itself on this blog, the space would not have been enough to describe what runs through me. I've been expereincing a lot of emotions and hot to handle them. Feeling empathy towards a few, has stirr,ed the need to utter out a prayer or two, it has instilled more faith in God, in all what God has done to keep me going. There has been times, when I felt aloof, dull, worthless, when words hurt, when actions hurt, when being corrected. But with God's help, I really can see through it all. God has shown me how to get healed, how to forgive people, not holding them at grudge for things they did unknowlingly.
Talking to one of my close asociate yeterday, gave me a new though, we need to learn to forgive even our parents of what they did to us. Being a single breadwinner is always hard, if they had made some decisions that affected our diginity, or status as a child, and it still brings a tear, then, its not good for you. What ever the decsion they had taken at that time, seemed right to them, may be it still sounds injustice, but, we need to learn to forgive, do not hold them at grudge.!!! I said a word of prayer for this person who shared the pain...when a parent said no to a simple thing.
It also made me think, havign more than one child, u may have to take such decisions, may be its not anything against that child, but there were other priorities.. God understands your pain, he will heal you but u need to forgive ur parents...
God Bless you all...I wish I got more time to write...miss my web confidante !!
Talking to one of my close asociate yeterday, gave me a new though, we need to learn to forgive even our parents of what they did to us. Being a single breadwinner is always hard, if they had made some decisions that affected our diginity, or status as a child, and it still brings a tear, then, its not good for you. What ever the decsion they had taken at that time, seemed right to them, may be it still sounds injustice, but, we need to learn to forgive, do not hold them at grudge.!!! I said a word of prayer for this person who shared the pain...when a parent said no to a simple thing.
It also made me think, havign more than one child, u may have to take such decisions, may be its not anything against that child, but there were other priorities.. God understands your pain, he will heal you but u need to forgive ur parents...
God Bless you all...I wish I got more time to write...miss my web confidante !!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
A beautiful call, to walk with people To share their tears, to lift a prayer, to stand with hope when none is there. Oh the joy our hearts...
-
Called, But Careless Chosen from the countless throng, A leader's badge, a nation's song. The crowd looked on, their hopes were ti...
-
Bloom Where You Are The desert rose blooms in the fiercest heat, It doesn't wish for the frangipani's sweet. The bougainvillea cl... -
When we started 2015, we didn't know of the changes it would bring esp to church timings. In 2015 May God marvellously opened a way for ...