Dad n Mom ...

It's time to have more family home..yea it's the season to welcome more family I guess.. October 2009!! It was B's parents first.....n then my folks..n finally my new member !!

Dad n Mom r gonna be here tomm, around this time, we'd be (hope I'd be) receiving them at the airport..i.e if my baby does not decide to come tomm the very same time her grandparents arrive. LoL ! It's so much fun to think abt it, but trust me scares me a bit to think abt the labour room, the lights, the blue uniformed ....nice folk. God ! I wish it was soon over n it wud be 3 months past tis time, would I be more happy n glee than tis? Or wud I still be worried abt not workin? Or wud i even have found a job n think of being a stay home mom?

God, ppl keep checkin on me to see if all z well, yea it is...by God's gace except for this cruciating, tearing apart pain in my pelvic joint, all z fine. It gets hard to get on my feet at times with this pain. I no more walk Abel to school or pick him up..its his Dada or the nanny.

We've been lookin at Oct 15th like ...days n weeks away, n its tomm..donno wat i feel. mom n dad r here....to welcome the baby, hope she too comes soon !! Will be seeing my aftercare lady today.Pray tat she wud be gud to me n my li'l one. Aibz is so cute sumtimes...yesterday he was like...why are u always in pain? He thinks it is all to do with the baby !!

Happy Anniversary to B

We've had our arguments over the years
And some of them brought me to tears
But more important are the good times we've shared
The things you've done to show me you care

Yes, we have arguments now and then
But our love endures through them all
And most of them I can't even recall

But all the good times we shared are buried deep within in my heart
Loving memories dear to me memories from which I'll never part

There is a warm hug where you are
There is a shoulder I can lean on
In the end, I am sure I have a person with a heart to accepts me as I am

This you already know it’s our love that’s made our marriage grow
&
the reason why it does not look like its been 5 years

Had to create a collage for Abel....using nuthin but Picasa...

In a new city, in a transit home....n with less than 1/10th of my packed boxes..it get's hard to get things done te way u want it!!

Aibz had to create a base chart for the semester, n we were to submit pics on the theme in abt 3-4 days... The theme for Unit 1 is family n relations...

Not havin my personal collection of pics of family ..yea itz still cmin !!
I admit had to flick 'em online ;) not from general public but family !!
Some pics from G's n C's picasa albums, n add a few from mine too.....

I;m sure I'll have better and more pics of ppl in my collection but at this stage do not have resources at hand.

So here'z wat I put together, not a gr8 job but din have any tools like Photoshop !!!

GRANDPARENTS


EXTENDED FAMILY


MY FAMILY


MY PICS

I'm bored

Gonna be 2 weeks since we moved...Aibz started school last week n feels great abt it. He says no writing ...all he is asked to do is "play again", play again....tidy up time "...i'm lookin fwd to the eid holidays...

B has no special timigs for Ramadan..it DXB it used to be less workin hours for all. Here it makes sense to give that only for those who are fasting. We saw abt a few houses...liked one a lot. Wonder if we'll get it.....luv the greenery too !!

Went around saw the place...te campus is adorable, a gud place to be. The Club seems to be gud lot of stuff tat u can do n be involved in !!!

But still there is this me who badly wants a job...trying to send out my CVs to all possible people and places. !!!

Finally here!!

So many untold, unrecorded events happened in the past days, if given a choice could even write n entire book...Was feeling so attached to a place that we almost had to fight to get the clearaces...Gosh!!! It also became a reason of argument between me n B. I mean I dont think I've been blamed for something. He literally sounded like it was all coz of me tat he was goin thru those rough days. N I could not stop from askin why does it only occur when times are rough? Those easy days when life was smooth no one told me it was coz of me!!! Why aren;t we thankful.....for wat we had n enjoyed, why can;t we just take it when it goes wrong/?? Why do u loose hope???

In the end...thank god that God was by my side..we won the big fight n saved almost 5000 grants from goin down the drain !!! It seemed to me that we wanted to literally knock the supervisor.....the maintenance guy who did not know how to point out the difference between wear n tear and a genuine damage !!!

Gosh, even f it took longer I'm glad that things worked the way it should have been. We would have been released long back if this was done earlier..!!!

Dad n Mom were back from india...before weekened...we still had to return back to AUH to settle the last day...man it was such a marathon...n we reached home only by 7 PM. Unforgettable journey ..n last day's beauty care treatments from V felt great ....after the hard long days !!


We still had bags to pack for the final trip....and it looked like we had to buy a lot of stuff....!!!

Friday was the day, we packed almost final on thursday......n rest on friday...the dinner at Bro. A's place was gud. A nice farewell from the church...felt sad to say bye but it s for a new beginning !!

Today, we were up quite early....all set to finally leave...waved bye to all at home..dad, mom , n bro B left us in the airport...Was i more than sad..why do i still fight back tears, why do I not let it down, people think that I am hard hearted may it be so !!

The flight to Oman took only 45 mins...Abel's comments on reaching the aiport was far more than wat I expected ...He was like "Is this te airport" ...n a lot more..

As adults B n I could not ask a few questions ..out loud tis guy could...

Some things I will not forget ...

- How we were welcomed...we were told that a ground duty staff will escort us. We had to hunt for the staff who was to lead us..it was funny.
- How the placard was handwritten that too...with a marker that hardly had ink
- How the OIG staff who escorted us to the transit home had a placard (paper) with B's name written with a Ballpoint pen..(trust me.,.,,u do not spot it from 5 steps !!)

Time z up

Huh, I don't think I feel gud to type anymore..my heart weighs more than wat i thought it wud..I din kno it wud be so hard for me...kinda always thought myself to be quite cool abt things.

Acually I never show it, want to luk brave I guess :) It z nearing time....the empty rooms make me wanna cry, why are we so attached yet so detached..? Till now it never occured that I was so attached to this place..the same me who wanted to move out last year to a new place, a smaller home..why do I feel so now??

I guess it wud have been easier then, it would have appeared to me like a mere shift, now it feels like I'm being robbed of some thing that was always part of me....

Its almost time to say BYE

The house is already empty....I am more tired n feel like I;ve grown 3 years in few days...feel like I'm turning bitter, wonder if the thought of not having a full time job is bothering me. Or is the concern of a new mom if she will be able to giv her new child the same privileges the other child had. Not sure...I;m tryin not to be bitter. Just praying for more grace...Poor B it must be hard to him to see me through this.

Writers Relocators.....hav almost taken most boxes except for the last few that will be ready by 23rd or so...!!!! Don like their numbering..rather go by mine..yea CS1, Ao1 etc...huh, wish I could number all of them the way I want it to be....

Infant bags separate....

Miss'n UAE already !!!

Clearances ~~

We seemed to have planned tis quite well in advanced but some times it does nto work the way u want it to ....B is such a good planner, he is systematic in all what he does. He had a clear cut on dates, all mapped n lined to go in the way it is supposed to.

The shipment will leave the house soon...it will be an empty house that we're gonna be in ;) in another few days it will be Last working day for B and for me in UAE. It really hurts to part with AUH home...a place tat used to be HOME..more than the Maramon house, we've memories around here.. Well may be not for B but for me..tis has been home for years, since school, we've been here...each room has its story abt how we fell in love with it !!! I wish we were less attached and sentimental to such things !! God!!

Time's running short !!!

There are a lot of things to do...a lot of stuff to settle n clear before we move outta this country...There are a lot of uncertainities that come across my mind. But I am just blindly holding on to God who has brought me this far.

U gotta believe that it will work out well, things will be better for all.

Ne'er bring Aibz 2 work 1!

I've learnt a lesson today, not to get Aibz at work. He is still a child who demands attention from me even when he is given a PC and cartoon all to himself. There are umpteen number of questions that keeps popping up that brain, that i was doing nothing but tending to him !!

It looked like I was baby sitting at work...

By 11:30 am he wanted to go back home...he said he was bored with cartoons. He instructed me to close the browser and he goes "no more". I took him to the mall and thought he would be happy helping with groceries and would go back home. He would not let me return to work that I had to take the rest of the day off !!

So no more kids around at work, u ahrdly get work done !!

Weekend diary

Wonder why I should even bother blogging this !!!

We're back...all dead tired, ready to hit the bed. Abel's already feeling blue tat he left his grandparents. I've promised him to take him with me to work, thats the only thing that is keeping him on...!! Good for me :)

Yesterday was tiring enough, by the time we reached dubai, we got a call that Abel was already asking for us ..i.e by 6 AM. He is one child whose body clock does not lie. He was told that we would come to fetch him to take to church and h refused to be changed by anyone other than his mumma. B's mom tried to sweet talk him in to changing his mind n he went "my mumma will come". B's Dad like any concerned parent said, "he should not be so adamant that he will not change without his mommy around". Daddy pulled him to the washroom and this fella of mine started wailing. B's brother was against daddy and aske him to leave Aibz alone....so we both come on stage (ring the door) when this li'l guy was wailing.

We rushed to the washroom and went "Aibel'..n u shud have seen the way he cried even B was touched !! B moved to Aibz and took him in his arms. The moment he saw us he started to cry harder it looked as thoguh it was then it strked his little brain that. "I should be with my parents" Neyways..it was Dad n son time....B cleaned him up, helped him change...!!! But seriously he cried his lungs out when he saw us, he looked so sad that we had to hold him and assure him that we love him !!

It took another 20 mins for him to be the same old Aibz...in church it was fun, this fellow wanted to pass the offerty bag, n he went up to B as he was passing the bread n he goes "Dadda I want the bag". B was so annoyed that Aibz went up to him as he was giving the bread. In the end somehow he managed to stand in thr front row to pass the bag. LoL!! B says it looked like he was gettign ready for a running race as soon as the offerty was announced this fellow dashed !!

After church, we had a heavy lunch preparation, it must be the heat, i felt dizzy and could not see anything !! My first time ever..thank god B was around !!

Lunch was great, with Mom;s special mutton curry...took an afternoon nap.

In the evening we went to the Mall, we went looking for stuff for B's bro n in the end made B take 2 shirts..and trousers :) He really needed them coz the old ones look so loose on him now. Yea he has lost quite some..from 96 he's dropped down to 81 !!

I woke up very late this morning, only by around 8 or so. We attended the Ladies Meeting in Worship Center. It was Children's special day and they had puppet show, dance, songs et. Aibz refused to sit along with the otehr kids, he sat on my lap throughout the meeting !! I'd packed a tiny pack for atti and was hopin that B's bro would not mind taking it. It was less than half a kilo, but all he coul carry was 20 kgs since the ticket was booked from India. Anyways, no one said antyhing :) eee

For lunch Dad made Turkey ..it was yumm !! We did not sleep after lunch, aibz wanted to go with his Appapi to india..kept asking a lot of questions like "shall i come', can i come" why cant i come' etc etc..

We left home by about 5...!!

Watiin for the weekend

There are only few weekends that I look forward to...esp cpz it requires me to get up by 4:30 am, get ready to set out to Dubai..

I can;t wait for tomorrow, it seems like ages since my abel has left from home. When I called him this mroning he told me that he wanted me to get him chips n biscuits. Well kids are manipulative they know what to ask for and when !!

We've asled our nanny to make Banana fritters for the family, and some sweet to celebrate, will also take the turkey ..... !!! A few mins back the nanny called to say that she is done with the dessert adn needs me to be around for preparing the turkey and the fritters. I already feel so lazy..B has asked me to get ready to meet a friend of mine. We gotta get some papers from them. B's bro is leaving this saturday, n we may not come back until saturday night.

At work its just me...now, the place is so empty, I will try to get Abel here when he comes to AUH. Will have to put some cartoons on to keep this attention.

Busy busy at home and at work

Well this week was quite busy, B's bro will hav to go back again !! I feel sad for him, there is this sisterly thing u know, u kind of want the best for them. Not everyone may approve of one, but there is so much goodness in people that others fail to see the best and focus only on the fallacy (atleast that's what they think!!)

Dad n Mom did not stay back they left yesterday, took Aibz also along the coming saturday B's bro wuld leave and there is so much to do.Its good that Abel gets some time off with his paternal grandparents and uncles. It feels so silent and dull when i go back from work. Well it is a relief not to have anyone kick me or my ever grwing belly

But I miss having him around, calling out MUMMA a million times in a minute. We have a game where I count the number of times...he calls me Mumma, by the 14th count he is all smiles and tries not to say the word MUMMA.

There is no one to hit the dorr when I am in the washroom..no angry tone tat goes "wat are u doin mumma?"

Results and the party

Sorry, didnt get time to update it here...as usual busy on the weekends!!

On thursday, the party went off well in school, I managed to reach the school by 10:15 after picking up the cake. It looked gud till my chap pounced through it. As i entered the school I was welcomed by one of the nannies she went "Oh Abel's Mom". Hmm wat a way to be remembered !!

Anyways she asked me if I needed help with, I just had to know the directions to his class, n she showed me.I knocked at the door. Before I knock, I could hear the teacher go "Abel you should not say i don't want this color, you must take what I give you" n I mused, sure that sounds like m kidddo, he wants what he wants.

The teacher heard the knock, n was not prepared to see the Mom..LoL!!

U should have seen the look on my ward's face...a million words are not enuf to describe the joy on that face to see the cake box. He sprung up from his seat and shouted "My mummma" n all kids were shotung "My mumma"..(okay for a while I was the mother of all 25 of them but kinda liked the way I got attention .lol ..I'm kidding)

So I explain to the teacher that Aibz wont be coming to the school anymore. We are all set for a new break, a new move, n told her how much I appreciate her and the other staff for their patience. She was sad to hear that he was leaving. She told me that aibz is interested in almost everything. He talks, he repeats, he admonishes the others and was too much at times but she told me "I really love this child". For a mom, that's means a lot !!!

Aibz was all the more excited to see that his Mumma had a box of chocholates for him to share with his friends.

I gave him the box to distribute, n u shud see the way he gave it off, instead of following the line of students who were seated, he gave to his friends in whatever order he chose. I had to tell him not to do that !!

The teacher called him to the front, called the others around him to sing for abel. So before they cut, I told the kids, that it is not Abel's b';da but we are going to thank our class teacher for helping us learn so many things this term. N I went shall we all say "Thank You Ma'am"...the moment I finished, I heard 25 of them say "THANK U MA"AM".Wow I have never been with such an audience who were so obedient.

They all sang "HJappy b'day" to abel even though it was not his b'day..and Aibz cut the cake..all happy n glee....!! WE went around the office, to tthe day care and everyone in the school to thank them for all what they have meant to us !!!

I left for work rite after that, promising the teacher that I would come and attend the "Open House".

At 4:00 pm, i left from work to drop off the cark near to home. B said he would come pick me and Abel up instead of both of us driving n finding a parking space near to school. Aibz was so thrilled to go back to school.

B met the teacher, she gave us the report, and we saw most of them were A+ except for for math, as i could see, he had messed up the 7 and the dictation. At home this fellow does his math better than english, strange enough..The teacher said she would miss abel...hugged him and said "come back to see me"

We went around the school to click pics as memoirs, to show him in the years to come :) met his pre-school teacher, she hugged him and said "god bless u my child..i have a lot of memories and pictures of u". Apparently she was the one who helped me cope through the major change. She says she saw from a gloomy to a confident kid!!

I could not thank them all any less...God Bless the school !!

Weekend was great, on friday we went to sharjah...didnt return the same day...Had to stay over night!!

We returned yesterday morning, had to do a lot of shopping as Abibz gransparents were coming over to stay for a week. they were home by evening, around 6 pm.

Today they are all there having a lot of fun n I am tryign to finish off some pedning tasks!!

Aibz b'day party !!

Well its not his b'day yet, nor have we postponed it...

We have given a notice to the school that Aibz will no logner b studying in Noah's Ark. The lady at the counter was shocked and she told B that "e will miss Abel". Of a place of over 200 kids they still remember him. There is no single member who does not know him, mainly coz the way he talks (yea he tlaks a lot !!) n the way he was finding it hard to cope with daycare the first 3 months. He was the only child who was brought in to the day care for such long hours which expalins why they are so fond of him. How I wish I didnt have to do it? I always wanted him close to me, near to me most of me didnt want to see him being hurt...

Sometimes i wonder if I was so good to have such a wodnerful kid. He can bring a smile when I am shattered, he can make me shed a tear even when I am proud of him. He makes me bring the creativity in me, he makes me look forward to be positive. He makes me feel how unconditionally you can love, he makes me feel how much God has bestowed in me!! I simply cannot stop thanking God for making me a woman to realize the worth of another !!

I have to set it out for Aibz..tomorrow is the last day of the term n his last day in a school in abu dhabi...The class has already announced a party day, n I am thinking of giving Aibz a surprise. I will be heading to the bakers to order for a 2 Kilo cake for his class. Will take the disposables and the required so that he can cut the cake. Aibz always wanted to cut a b'day cake in class..His falls in decemeber when the school closes for winter, so I am taking this oppurtunity to get him cut a cake. I am going to call it a "Thank You" cake as to thank the school for all they've done for me and Abel :)

We also have to pick up the report cards tomorrow after school (after 3:30 pm !! )

Last week @ Noah's Ark

In anohther 2 days Aibz will have to say goodbye to the school. I kinda feel that I am leaving the school, coz they saw me through the changed I had to cope with the last 1 year.

It brings a tear to me to think back..About 12 months back, I was in a disposition that I had to send my 2.5 year old to day care. It tore me apart to see my kid cry, wail...!!! Memories don;t die..those were the days that I cried helplessly praying for a way out of all this. My li'l fella was used to a housefull of people..my folks, my sis, B and me. It downsized to just 3 of us, and all of us working full time. In another one month his dear atti also had to leave!!!

I thought I would die seeing my child cry for me. I wished I could change everything, i used to wish to be a full time mother, but again, I love my job more than all I needed to keep a job!!

There were 2 nannies at the day care who were really fond of aibz, who used to pamper n pet him. Till this day I am thankful to his dear Januu and Maryam. Had it not been for Jaanu he would not have stayed longer !!

In ocotber after our trip to Atti;s wedding things became so worse. Aibs did not want to be away from me. He wanted me glued to him !! One day during lunch I went to the school to pay the fees n I saw the other kids in preschool waiting for the buses in line. Some kids were being picked up by their dads. I saw one of the kid's father open his child's box to examine of he had finished his meal. It made me cry thinking that when the other kids wait for their buses/dads mine was pulled to the daycare section. It hurt me to see only my child being pulled in and the rest being asked to stand in line to go home. My poor thing had no home to go coz theer was noone at home to wait for him, to feed him, to wash him. I went to my car n cried for almost 10 mins. To date when i think of those moments I do not fail to shed a tear.

That day changed me, I prayed that God give me more forbearance when I see him, more love when I touch him, more love when I am around him. How on earth will a 2.5 year old understand so much of change in life. If being 27 I could not take it how hard would it have been on him ??? B was equally sad when I told him how much bad it made me feel my kid being pushed in to the "other" room whilst the others were all happy to go home.

There were no one who could really help me out...!!!

Those were the days I decided that even if sponsoring maids were a fortune, i had to have one around to see a smile on my child. We started looking for one and ended up with one whom Aibz took almost a month to be pally with...

SInce November i saw a happy kid, a confident child, this term, I saw a super confident child who wanted to go to the school, to finish up his homework, to be the first one to recite rhymes etc...

For sure, the shcool has had its influence on Aibz, he was so sad initially ...tat any mom would want to pull the kid back to her. I thnak the school for all the teachers and nannies who helped Aibz cope through the changes ..one after the other and who still love him !!

One day my fellow does not turn up, the entire crew knows that he is not around!! He is such a loving child, they all say...well he only reciprocated what you showed him !!

Hats off to all the teachers and helpers .....I will truly miss u !!!

Last Day

Aibz z don with most of is exams....wonder if teacher didn stick to the timetable well enough. Coz the day of Math aibz told me that he was asked to recite rhymes. Gosh!! how do they expect the mothers to revise the subject set for the next day ??

Anyways, its just KG1, n I don't like it already..LoL. Well, its just that Aibz is gud @ rhymes n stories and want him to do well on those days, it is not for being the best in class. I just want him to show his real potential in these tests, nothing more. I don't yearn for those "best" or "most intelligent" remarks. I guess all what I am looking for is Ebba 2 be happy with the way he has performed..

We'll have to wait another week for the results. no big deal there !!

Math is over

Aibz was so so when I asked him about his test.. B returned form his trip, we'd not expected him to turn up at night. The dinner was over and we'd cleared it all and ter my man comes at 9:30 as me n my child was preparing for the test...haha anyways, he had his dinner. He alsomost gave me a shock when I heard the key on the door!! How could anyone possibly break in to a home with a key n off all!!

We had to put an abrupt end to Aibz lessons n go to bed..it was dadda;s return n time to celebrate. Aibz had so much to talk about. I decided that i let the two have some time together...n bang no mpre studies..

After all he did a gud job !!

Aibz was yapping when i reached home, he was glad that he finished te writing exam, he said he did most of all he could not get the G right, well i said u will learn n told him its okay as long as u did it all right. :)

Today he has his math..wonder if he wud mix up 7 and 4..for reasons that i cant comprehend. He sometimes says 4 for 7 and 7 for 4, n his teacher tells me most kids in the class do, so my question is like why are they ALL confused did the teacher goof up of write 7 in a way that the kids were reminded of 7 ..well no clue.

Hope he does it okay, he loves to count the pic and write the numbers, he loves matching the pictures with the numbers, but he does not like writing in sequence..i mean to me it looks more like they were not given practise in school, the teacher had given classwork to do individual numbers but never in a sequence...

It is quite some task, to make them understand that they will have to keep doing it on their own no one's gonna ask waht comes after 3...as they write..LOL

They also have dictation..!! numbers !! Well he is okay when I say it at home but i tink at school he does not keep to the pace of his teacher :)

Let's see how he does !!

Take a break?

Its pretty drab out here @ work with fewer number of people, n with my ever so wandering mind. How i wish I could put this all aside and start on the move. Well, nothing z final until you get it in black n white :) So gotta wait..perseverance is the key!!!

There are a few tasks that needs to be complete before the end of the semester. Will have to focus on those !!

Preparations

Dada is off to Suadi again...n its jus te twosome...i mean threesome including the new li'l one within. The li'l one is so gnetle n silent unlike abel, he kinda of made his presence felt right from 16 weeks, this one is just the opposite. Very finicky, picky, can't handle spice or too much of food..very girlish, wonder if its a she. I need my doc to confirm this time, last time he got away without giving me a clue, the next one is due 23rd or 22nd....hmm a long wait..but i gotta find u out.

Aibz n I are trying to play n learn, well i am trying to make it sound like a play. my poor child he is such a sweetie, he comes running as i open the door..asking me how was my work..?? Wat more of a greeting do u need..no wonder mumma gets his stuff that she is not supposed to..i tend to spoil him a bit, got his a packet of chips (well picked out one that did not mention MSG not sure if they do no have it !! )

Te War

My mind cannot make up its mind....

There are 2 things one is that at this point I am really not sure if we will get the permit and the clearance, so cannot put in my papers. At the other end, the semester would come to an end on 28th June. N everyone will be gone, I wish to tell them that there could be chances that I may leave, if things work out for Good..

We are specifically told by the new co. not to give in papers until we hear a confirmation from their end, which makes it very hard for us.

Aibz exams?

Tis poor li'l son of mine has to face the term assessments, time flies, he was just a baby who could barely lift his hands to me...53 months back, now he's gotta prepare for being analyzed by his educators...It only makes me wanna think that one has no control over time :)

My fella seems to be okay with rhymes, stories, he does not like it when it comes to writing ....Guess he is like me does not want to make a mistake, wants to make sure that he gets it right. He writes it perfect till u raise ur voice....if u dare raise ur voice then he will be so adamant not to nudge !! So we gotta handle him, his way ...
from 14th til the 18th he has his term papers ... :)

Off to new meadows..

Is the grass greener on the other side? Can't tell until you are really there.

There is no one single moment that I halt from thinking about wats next, esp now that it is one of the most critical decision making moment. We're ready to take a chance, to see what z in store for us. A lot of superficial preparations and calculations fills up our time. There are still uncertainties that we cannot make an announcement about this new venture.

Poor Aibz he hardly knows whats ruling the minds of his progenitors, that's why perhaps one wishes to still be a child, not having to know or face the realites the adults face !! I wonder if he'd be thankful about not knowing it ...!!

It took almost 3months for it all to get through, first of all march was when we applied, it was by April that B got the first ever call. Then follow up calls...it took another 1 month for them to finalize..then another 2 weeks to get the papers in place. the papers have not reached us yet, we are doing the ground work, gettting the medical and other required docs.

Yesterday was a long day, had to go to NMC get all sorts of medical done. We reached the hospital by 10:30 and by te time we were done it was 12:40. Had to pick up the other car from NISSAN and we also had about 15 ppl coming in that evening...Thank god for my housekeeper, she managed to cook the food, set the home partly....by the time we went in. Whilst out wait @ NMC managed to get Aibz some food, BiteRite came in as a blessing. I'm not commenting on how he enjoyed the food but he was glee that he could spend some time there.

If we ever have a next time around, we will remember not to take te kid along. The wait for these medical tests can be unpredictable and kids get hate waiting !!

I was proud of my fella, he was such an angel, entertaining ppl, all he wanted was to make ppl smile, run around and socialize :)

Its better to keep the children off the clinics until they require to be there...for another reason to..germs and other infections!!

We had placed order for our guest from the hotels and we never speculated that it wud be late for us. My housekeeper had the money to pay for it...since we'd given her the monthly dues just the other day

Saturdays are our days when we shop for provisions for the week, a day that Aibz look fwd to . Yesterday, B had to do it on his own, of course we always have our list ready so he had to just pick the stuff that was on my list.

Aibz n I went to drop off B at NISSAN and we returned home, the challenge of the day was to find a parking space. It took me almost 20 mins to get a place..n by the time we got home it was 2:00 PM.



It was only by 3: 30 pm, that we could get our hands on our lunch !!

My appointment :)

Tomorrow is my doc's appointment....wow, i'll be 18 wks complete..
Too eager to knw wat I'm getting ;) waiting for the verdict to be out!!

Lift up my moods

If there z one person who can make me feel so light after a storm, itz B and his words. All I need now is a call to B, n he will be the best to suggest me something..

Do I need a break? Or not?

Tears....n me seem to be inseparable now !!

'Twas one of those casual days....that it turned to be but I seem to have lost control..but the sad thing is that it was at work that I lost it .. :)

Tears....n me seem to be inseparable now !!

'Twas one of those casual days....that it turned to be but I seem to have lost control..but the sad thing is that it was at work that I lost it .. :)

Yipeee...its been 16 wks ....

Wow, there is no doubt that time flies at a pace more than you know and can handle..;) It's inconcievable that its been 16 weeks now...it wud have been more convincing had I felt the movements. :)

We did see an active being during our visit to the doc. Batting with arms and limbs,that the doc had to take a break n divert the attention. Slightly hinted that it could very well possibly be a damsel that I'm getting...

I'm excited coz I always wanted one !!

On my way home, asked Aibz what he would like to have, n he said he'd luv to have a lad to play with. Hmm I need t convince him that damsels are good at games..:) B suggests that I should not prepare him for any gender, just need to talk to him about how good it would be to have some company @ home...shud try that...

Mol B'day

Well tomm is G's B'day.....need to remind myself not to forget to wish her tomorrow. Time flies, still have memories of the times we took the same bus, studied in the same school, n yet could talk on and on for hours abt school and ppl...

The times when u thought years wont pass by to be a woman, be in a relationship, be a wife, a Mom, have a career...Those where the times when one thought dreams were far fetched..Times when one wanted to accomplish and be established in life to have a smooth sail..Are we there yet? Or still looking for more greens? How long does the contentment that you have from one accomplishment last?

Back 2 my self...Ebz is gud, having a hard time to focus on writing. He is much alike me, loves to tackle the easy things first....you cant press him to get things done. :) B is hard on him sumtimes, the strict and the organized person he is cannot tolerate the way Ebz does it...well my point is he will get it...hmmm time will only prove that.

I'm feeling better now, had a doc appointment and he says allz well..in Mland. Have a visit scheduled for 2 weeks from now....Ebz atti's back home with Dad n Mom, must be a relief for her n for them to have her. Ebz not too sure if he wants to go be with them without his Mumma.. ;) (Mumma does not want to part with him ...!!)

Moving on

Its been 3 months now...well past 3 months, and feels like yesterday..
Looking back is easy, looking forward .......a lot of questions fills my mind. Wonder what it would take to complete the rest of this period..

'Twas manageable the first time around with the support of Ma. Life's so different without having her around ;)

Hmm I'm a strong girl...I will be fine :)

loquacious to laconic !!

Change is inevitable, but when it is something that identifies a person, it is a major change !!!

The past few days, I've been tired for words, and all I knew is that I need to rest my weighed head. By the time I reached home, it was about 6:00 pm. Had a fast meal..yea...almost my dinner. And this younger man that I love, would not let me rest. He wanted me by his side, wanting me to listen to all his stories and even more to listen to his fav music from my mobile !!!! I manged to close an eye, n he caught me, made me sit up on the bed...gosh !! i just wished that my husband was around...he would understand me when I say that "I am tired"!!

In the end I had to give in and try to hold on for more time..yes dance to his strings a bit....simply coz he was seeing me after a few hours of wait..he deserved my attention too :)

Later yesterday evening, I had no craving for any special food..had relished on a cheese manakesh from the Lebanese Bakery on Airport Road...(i never liked it before !!)

To my relief, B came in at 7:30 PM...he was equally tired and wanted to hit the sack. An unexpected guest called in at 8:00 and had to hold on a little longer till they left..It was almost 9:30 when we retired....

N needless to say my li'l man wanted to yap, about god only knows wat....B was so tired that he almost shouted at Aibz n he was crying..Later he almost went to B...as B was sleeping took his hand kissed hime good nite..Oh, I was so proud of him..:)How innocently beautiful the react..

AIbz amazes me always :)

3 times Masters??

A proud moment for the 18 grads seated on the stage..
Graduates of variour age groups and backgrounds all seated together to finally get recognized for the 2 years of study. It looked like more of a responsibility than a recognition. B was seated 3rd from the left and I am sure it must have been a proud moment to have his family and extended family at the graduation day...

As always, he never gets away without being a co-ordinator of some sort..N lo, I saw his name as the Associate Dean, I am told that he does not hold an office but has to be there. All the other graduates lived/worked in the same city whereas B worked about 150 kms away and was there for setting up the rooms n co-ordinating the event.

Dad n Mom were proud of their son, I;m sure this was the first time they got to attend a function tho he has taken up 2 Masters and a Bachelor.. :) Aibz was the happiest kid on the block seeing his Dada on stage ...

Don't know what I felt, hmmm....just wanted to rush home to hit the bed in a way but wanted to really be there watching B look so glee..It was almost 12:40 am when we hit the bed...needless to say, Aibz was not sent to school this morning !!

Time Pass

This gravid female is getting weird senses n feelings…..
Was always a foodie..now I'm not interested....
had an aversion towards cheese, now I'm in for it..
always always craved for spicy food..now cant stand it….
Loves veggies…
N more than all that, I feel sick at night..
Not interested in anything…..
Plus there is one more thing….
I am in love with a younger man
Just worried how I’d be able to justify myself……
Yea in a way this younger man keeps me going !!!

Can't make out if it’s true love or real love or both..
Never thought I’d be in luv more than once….
This man matches my present temperaments

I feel so good with him that I wanna be with him ….always..
Shh...please keep this a secret….if u really wanna know tis man…..

whom
I ♥

I'd confide with u......provided that B does not hear of it....
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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He calls me Mumma and is younger to me by 25 years..

Deadline

Feel so lethargic these days, tired and sleepy most of the times .......
It bothers me to hear not so good news...now, B called to say that his twin is asked to leave the country or find a job before 16th April..Well nothing is too hard for the Lord, but it means only 10 more days, Mom must be more than worried..donno....

5 days of jaunt :)

The long awaited trip has finally come to an end..4 years have gone by since we first thought of such a jaunt, something or the other came up that this could never materialize until March 5th, 2009.

It was Akhil's bday on the 5th...i thought 'twas on the 6th and failed to wish him till the day of the party ..LoL. It was a first time meet up with his cousins'..and Abel enjoyed the time he spent. It took almost 3-4 days for them all to behave more like pals...As always my friendly 3 feet was quick to shake hands with all, hug all, but the feelings(sorry actions) weren't mutual..they took their time to befriend him :)

The bb'day boy was excited that Uncle B got him a soccer table game...and it was all his. He made me assemble the game the day he got it. After some help from B and Ani chahcn, we got the table ready. Now, there were two 3 year olds who hardly knew the fun of the game, when akku started to defend and play the game, I found ebba picking the players off the table...what more does it take to annoy akku ??? He wanted Ebba and Anakha outta the house !! In a few mins time I could hear him calling the twosome back in...he decided to give them another chance. Well, n they did it again !! Moms come up with ideas..so we had the b'day boy's mom suggesting that the three year olds get to play with some other toys...needless to say ebba was excited..to see a big box of a variety of toys. He didnt know wat to pick..well, being a single child, he thought it was given to him n was all his .....Ebba had no appetite for these 5 days.

4:00 PM on a thursday

Out here in the UAE, the weekends are Fridays and Saturdays and we really can't wait till it gets 5 on a Thursday. N to be specific mind has thoughts but all in mingled-tangled state. Wat and how to spend the weekend and how to squeeze in the regular weekend errands ;) n cannot wait to stay for this last hour..Why is that it is the longest wait ??

No plans for tonight, we will have to wake up early (as early as 4:30 AM) to go SHJ.

End of Sem !!

Well, today at 1:30 PM there is a Satff Meeting the director has put together.
Had an early lunch ;) from Mc..hmm I'm not really sticking on to my new year resolutions !! This is wat happens when someone compliments me !! LoL anyways will get back after the meeting. I'm looking forward to some quiet time at work..The faculty and students will be away for 2 weeks and it is just going to be a few of us here. Wow!! !

b'DAY pOSTpOnED?

I get a call on 14th morning that B would be bringing home a junior from my college. Well we remodeled our plans a number of times...from ordering the food in, to buffet to À la carte in the end, it was Fish Biriyani at our humble abode :)

N the best was the Junior from College G got me a bouquet of flowers, yeah gave it to me right in front of my husband!! (as Benoie puts it ...) N B got a pack of chocolates, the gift box kind of. Needless to say, enough to enthrall the audiences abel n his Mumma :) (yea as B puts it it is easy to please me, err well not always :) I was happy that there was so noise at home celebrating my day ;) LoL..

The cake cutting was the best...It was again a tiff between me and Abel as to who would cut the cake. And as it stands, Abel cannot care less to think or differentiate between his and anyone else bday. So, I decided to share the cake cutting with Abel..(actually it z was plethoric moment to have the 3ft n his progenitor standing next to me...err who knows may be there were impenitently waiting to get a morsel!!) The cake was so yummy, soft n nice..with fresh cherry paste between the layers of choholate. I cut out portions for all of us and we all started to nibble on our share...

It was as if Abel go this idea from above, he walks to the cake and says, "enough everybody we will give aunty" (his nanny). (Yes he is a loving child) He takes the cake n walks 2 steps n the cake goes flying down with the the icing facing down and bottom facing up..the cake went "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!"

Or so to say poor cake !!!

Single on my B'day

Hmm I must have started working on this quite some days back but never got to work on it. I remember the loose lines tat crossed my mind and the sharp notes to make this post hit the jackpot..however, nothing worked. I wanted to scoop up the opportunity to point out to my confidante (yea like the www?? silly !!) that I was single on one of my best days, who cares really? Why do we(aka I) swonk(yea toil) so hard to get in to the right temperaments to type these posts look recherché? Do I? Well no, huh may be sometimes yes... !! Here I go off tangent again ;) errr !! me.

So, that night(13th) the way back home was exciting for weird reasons. I knew there were no flowers or even a single soul waiting for me to get back home to make my day. It was another drab day, my nanny knew that it was my b'day but didn't know what to do!! I was lost for ideas to make my own bday !! It was chilling cold or else would have taken Abel for a stroll to AD Mall n get him some goodies. Poor fellow the weather has its toll on children esp on him.

As I reached home, showed off Abel the cake Santhi Aunt n family sent..He was more interested in the cherries than the occasion all he wanted was to plunge in to the cake. I had to coax him, rather divert his attention with some Merci chocolates..

Abel wanted the cake to be cut "today"...
N B'day girl was didn't want to get remotely close to cutting till Benoie got home. In the end we came to an agreement that we will cut the cake when Dadda comes.Poor Abel !! Yeah Mommie me won again !!

Being alone, I thought I could use the time to see something nice to make me feel good. But it was again another rounds of ruckus between B'day gril and the li'l boy. All he wanted was nursery rhymes, Baby Faith and Hillsong Kids. my taste was "not good" aka "kollathilla" for him. In the end Hill songs won!! Trust me, we watched nothing but Abel's videos that night. It reminded me of the times as a kid, how we were to watch the choice of our parents. Now, when it comes to me..I am letting him watch his choice. how preposterous of me!!

We had a plain hushed dinner (yea with hush li'l baby at the back!!) on my b'day !! Just Abel n Me :) Benoie's return flight was from Bahrain and he stopped by Sam Achachahz. SO I get this call at 9 PM bo hooo..with a lot of people wishing me "happy bday" and asking for payasam!! Poor me didnt even have a payasam made home on my b'day. Benoie said he was going to attend PG Uncle and Lilly aunty's convention, Aren't some people always lucky? Yea, in Joel Osteen's words Benoie has so much of god's favor in his life. LoL.

Abel n I decided to stay late in case Dadda may surprise us with a late night arrival...Well so much so for my optimism , that my predicament be altered nothing happened.

We ran around the house playing hide and seek at odd hours than Abel voiced "ENUFF". He ran to the room with the bottle of milk aka his source of comfort !! N I was left staring on the walls...

I also walked in to the bed, snugged away abel ..and retired !!

The tale of 28 years young and 2 b'day cakes

I feel elated today with all the wishes, early morning calls, cakes, chocholates, e-cards, notes, scraps..and wall-to-wall messages on FaceBooK...

First of all, I thank God for keeping me alive to be able to feel elated LoL ....thanks for all these nice and lovely people out around me, who has invested their time, energy and money to bring an extra smile and a full heart today :) I'm glad that God created u guys and kept u special for me...:) This was one of my best b'days in the last few years... Thought this would be the worst bday as Benoie is not around. He is on a Business Trip (infact the first this year - 2009) and was to be back tonight but wont be as there is a meeting with some clients in the evening.....

To begin with, last night, atti gave a call ....n then followed a sequence of calls..Lol
Thanks to Gina, mom, dad, Abu chachan, Dolly ma, Ani Cha, Anu chech..and all the others who rang me up :) It really felt so nice to hear u all wish me :) feel so young yet so old...LoL

My poor Abel, all he knows is it is Mumma;s bday and there are some chocholates involved.
He wanted me to bring him some chocholates from work..coz usually I get him chocholates saying that some one gave me...and he thinks b'day chocholates comes from work..Anyways not to disappoint him, I am taking some chocholates with me.

I stepped to worka t 7:45...and at around 7:55, I had my buddies at work to wish..me :)
They showed me a personal message that they sent in the local news http://www.gnads4u.com/doc.html?_a=view&id=4903962

It really made me feel so great to see the newspaper message..thanks to Tariq, Suparna, Santhi and Azzam for putting it up. Then at around 10:00 ish, I was called by my dear friends again to cut my b'day cake. Wow it felt so nice to be treated with a cake :) LoL..

HJ, DB and the rest of us were there as I cut the cake...it was from Ceasar's n chocolate flavor :)
my dear husband forgot it was bday ....n he forgot to wish me...till some time..
I did not think he would...coz he is the one who usually reminds people..anyways, must have been busy. But before he left, as we were seeing him off...he gave me an assuring hug to let me know that he would be back for my bday. Lol, he forgot it this morning... :)

Anyways, we had a nice cake cutting session...n then some more mails from people.
One of my good old buddy sent me a mail after many months..
One of my best pals here...santhi..sent me a nice cake, the La brioche one that is my all time favourite...(hmm i will not be able to choose between miss j an La Brioche)

On the whole it was anice day at work...

At home there is no one waiting for me to have a nice day. lol Poor abel does not know the difference between today and any other day. I do not know if I should take them out (abel n my nanny ) perhaps not...coz wat if Benoie wants to take us all out tomorrow ..Had it been any other time I would have done it. This time of the year,it is not a great idea to celebrate my bday twice..
lol...I'm feeling so good today esp with the second cake waiting to be cut :)

Boney chacha's mumma dada

Last night, they came by 9:30 ....abel was so happy to see them at home. He loves to see people around, he loves company. What brightened him more is the gift that Boney Cahchan's parents got him :) they got him a nice car...he was so excited and wanted Achahcn to open it then and there....
We had to stop him so that he'd let us have dinner before it got cold... :) We had an arabic biriayani...for dinner but I found that they would have loved an indian version :) we like it coz it is less oily :)

N man if I have to key in wat all Abel talked it will never end :)

After dinner when they were about to leave, Abel was sayin g..."evidae pokuva" meaning where are u going?.."pokennda" saying dont go..His tone said how bad he felt that they were leaving. he said "u can sleep here", he also said "U got the car no, so please dont go"....

N before they left aunty gave a big box of Ferrero Roscher...and my Ebba was even more bright :) his face alit, it did not matter if they were going. He said "tomorrow I will take this to school'. I felt god that he didnt say that "I will have it all by my self :) " Lol

Feeling weird

Today, I feel weird...it makes me feel so bad after wat I saw at home. Wonder if she;d starve my child ?? And not give him anything !!

Benoie did not ask anything tis morning also, so I beocme the bad cop !! Wat to do? I dont loose my temper but this was the 2nd time that she lied to me. I also found that she went to the tailor shop near by and was talkin and chatting about him and his family. Well, it is not that she goes out that concerns me, what audacity they have to lie to us and act as though nothing even happened!!

Ah, sometimes i wonder if we are at their mercy, than opposed to the times when they felt they were at our mercy. She even hinted once that they can complain to authorities..gosh of waht?? We do not even mistreat them. What we ask them to do is not to leave work...when we are not at home. Do we step put from work just coz we dont have enough work on cue..?? No we don't!!
We stay back to see wat to organize or tidy up...I admit that they work for menial amount, but if they are honest we'd reward them more !!

Abel n mumma runs around the house every day....playing hide and seek .. :) we will have boney chahcna's mumma n dadda coming tonight. I went and got a few stuff for atti, god there are hardly anything but it weighs 3 kgs...worried if it will be too much...the worst part is there is hardly anything in it :)

abel's first day back !!

Abel had a long long holiday for almost a month, and it was his first day back to school..as usual was wailing and begging me that i dont go and that he also stays back at home..He was not even willing to change to his sports uniform, but we jsut had to. Benoie was adamant that we send him, so was our Mrs.A....

By 10:30 i thought i'd take a visit back home to see how things are. It was a very bad day, I happened to see that my nanny was out of the home, she was found talkin for more than 40 mins with a neighbour !! I'm not a person who'd want to snoop in to someone's privacy, but what irked me is that, she left the house without permission and was on the road talking for over 30 mins and lied to me that she'd gone out for to get some oranges..There were more than 2 kilos at home :( anyways, i almost had to loose my temper!!

Came back late, later than usual, didnt know how to start the conversation back with my maid. just asked her wat time abel;s bus would come the next day. We had to go otu for something that Benoie did not get time to talk to her.

Abel told me that he was not given rice that day...i checked to see the fridge and found that she had not cooked anything for Abel !!

First Day of work in the new year

A good beginning @ work..

The Server team had done some maitenance job last night and the server looks a lot healthy..and for a first day back and the first day of the new year, this looks great and in good shape. We are going to test the new version on our development server and if all goes well, will have to update the production server..But I'd rather wait till after 15th to do any sort of such updation..
It will not be easy to handle the errors during assessment week ;) esp new errors, this is not an ideal time to learn about new bugs if any :) so I'd rather wait !!

So far the day is good :)

another day out !!

We stayed home, went some to get provisions for the week to Al Wahda Mall...yes tat has become our weekly place to hang out at...i,e if we get the time to sit :) n relax ...Called a few people home but they could not make it :) Met some friends at the Mall :) Abel n mumma was having monday blues....

We had to go get my car as it was at my office...
I also decided to check the health of our Blackboard Vista servers and had to notify the Server admin team to do the maintenance...Abel wanted to come up to my desk, so Benoie brought him along...abel did not know wat to do..he asked for Suuparnaa aunty and David uncle...Lol poor kid.
He was like mumma tomorrow i am also coming to HCT !! I wish i could get him here, but yes one day was enough he did not let me use my own machine !!

2nd the Friday :)

Lol, it was a great feeling to go back to church again :)
The first Friday of the year, with the family, esp Benoie's folks :)

We had again some chocholates at church :) One family who could not make it for the watch night service on 31st had got them...Abel must have had more than 3 !!

We had lunch and left to Auh...on our way back home, we heard the news that there could be possible 3 days off..but instincts told me that I will not have since we have assessments going on at our school. We had to keep our Blackboard Vista Production ready for the tests :) On our way, we stopped by Jebel Ali, to get our all time favourite cafeteria :) n had a light dinner..abel opted to have only chips ...

New Year

We were late to wake up the first day of the year, and to top it up, it was a holiday!!! Abel did not even want to open his eyes, he was trying to snuggle me that I would not ask him to wake up. Poor thing but I could hear that the house was up and people were already preparing the meals for the day.

So, we walk out and saw Mrs. A fighting to keep her eyes open.
.She said she was not able to get proper sleep as it was not her usual bed and blanket. LoL.

By the time we all got ready for the breakfast it was 11 .........
We went to Qanat Al Qasba..Abel had lovey rides...on one mommy went along it was a mini version of the loop ride..and this guy says Mumma I will need a vehicle like tis for work !!
Man wat an imagination :)