Last week @ Noah's Ark

In anohther 2 days Aibz will have to say goodbye to the school. I kinda feel that I am leaving the school, coz they saw me through the changed I had to cope with the last 1 year.

It brings a tear to me to think back..About 12 months back, I was in a disposition that I had to send my 2.5 year old to day care. It tore me apart to see my kid cry, wail...!!! Memories don;t die..those were the days that I cried helplessly praying for a way out of all this. My li'l fella was used to a housefull of people..my folks, my sis, B and me. It downsized to just 3 of us, and all of us working full time. In another one month his dear atti also had to leave!!!

I thought I would die seeing my child cry for me. I wished I could change everything, i used to wish to be a full time mother, but again, I love my job more than all I needed to keep a job!!

There were 2 nannies at the day care who were really fond of aibz, who used to pamper n pet him. Till this day I am thankful to his dear Januu and Maryam. Had it not been for Jaanu he would not have stayed longer !!

In ocotber after our trip to Atti;s wedding things became so worse. Aibs did not want to be away from me. He wanted me glued to him !! One day during lunch I went to the school to pay the fees n I saw the other kids in preschool waiting for the buses in line. Some kids were being picked up by their dads. I saw one of the kid's father open his child's box to examine of he had finished his meal. It made me cry thinking that when the other kids wait for their buses/dads mine was pulled to the daycare section. It hurt me to see only my child being pulled in and the rest being asked to stand in line to go home. My poor thing had no home to go coz theer was noone at home to wait for him, to feed him, to wash him. I went to my car n cried for almost 10 mins. To date when i think of those moments I do not fail to shed a tear.

That day changed me, I prayed that God give me more forbearance when I see him, more love when I touch him, more love when I am around him. How on earth will a 2.5 year old understand so much of change in life. If being 27 I could not take it how hard would it have been on him ??? B was equally sad when I told him how much bad it made me feel my kid being pushed in to the "other" room whilst the others were all happy to go home.

There were no one who could really help me out...!!!

Those were the days I decided that even if sponsoring maids were a fortune, i had to have one around to see a smile on my child. We started looking for one and ended up with one whom Aibz took almost a month to be pally with...

SInce November i saw a happy kid, a confident child, this term, I saw a super confident child who wanted to go to the school, to finish up his homework, to be the first one to recite rhymes etc...

For sure, the shcool has had its influence on Aibz, he was so sad initially ...tat any mom would want to pull the kid back to her. I thnak the school for all the teachers and nannies who helped Aibz cope through the changes ..one after the other and who still love him !!

One day my fellow does not turn up, the entire crew knows that he is not around!! He is such a loving child, they all say...well he only reciprocated what you showed him !!

Hats off to all the teachers and helpers .....I will truly miss u !!!