Baby Time

Time flies by, I remember not able to accept the fact that we have a new member coming in 2011. Finally, that day arrived when I saw Baby Ben face to face...it seemed like we both went thru a lot already, post partum days were long enough!!! I still dont want to try to remember !!! Thank GOD he saw me throug it all.. There were moments that I felt left out all alone, n GOD was my refuge, the only person who I can voice out my fears in fact. I wished many a times that I could experience the person that HE is to literally talk over , to ease my worries....!!!!

2 months, have passed by, I still have some concerns, like will I ever be able to be a good parent. Will I have the patience n resilience my Mom had. Well, I know we are different but, inspite of Mom doing her best, we had our set of idiosyncratic episodes n fallacies !!! I just have to put my trust in JESUS, and ask for the Holy Spirit to guide me through and ask for courage to bear it all when I am at that stage !!! Why does it feel like, I need to go back a few years, wishing if there was a chance to go back 15 years !! Perhaps the key is, enjoy the present!! Coz there is goin to be a tomorrow when u think, that the days with lesser responsibility was easy !! Hmm, I'm glad that we grow up and realize how much of we can do without GOD and how much HE can add value to our every day !!!

Goin to join a MS course feels a little nice to go back to books....I pray that I will be able to do it..:) n my kids would let me :) Jesus, I put it at ur feet once again, and I can't do anything without ur help...Pls be in control of everything that concerns me while I have to attend the classes, specifically pray that the kids will be good while I am away !!